Monday, January 31, 2011

Sanur 5, Fun with Tasers


Five.

Next stop:  Gallery Place, Chinatown and The Intergalactic Nude Form ™ Center.

It’s been a while since there was any news about the Senate appointments on the Imperial Planet.

While on the METRO, you make a fist and check the weather on your BioPhone, instead.  Looks like another meteor shower will disrupt the Pluto Silvers vs. Venus Rovers game, in galactic-cast.  Blue gel beads just beneath the skin of your wrist to form lines of text and images. Then, a sudden tinge down your arm as a ligament tenses and lifts, dividing the skin’s screen in half.  Your fingers reflex open.  There’s a new tweet, from someone you’d never follow under this vigilant deer-regime:

HunterREB:  The Loving Emperor was tasered once by an ex-girlfriend, in a fight over who should keep her Nude Form :-P

No one… ever talks about the Master of the Galaxy that way?  You look over your shoulder.  Are their undercover watchers?  You never signed up to follow the Hunter Rebellion—how did they even get Twitter accounts in the first place.  So many nervous people are tugging their own shirt sleeves and checking their neighbors, perhaps frantic about the same.  Scrolling your finger back to the weather forecast lower on your forearm confirms that now there’s a vicious blizzard coming.  After that lone act of insurgence, multiplied many times… how many times?  Hundreds?  Thousands, beyond DC even?  It didn’t take long, for the Emperor to react and punish the region…  Depression weights the air, as people all around the train react and fix their sleeves again.  

More snow.  White-out conditions.  If San’ur Crush is this angry, was the Emperor was really tasered once?  Or, maybe the other lingering rumor, since the Senate went deer is true:  the leader of the Hunter Rebellion is hopped up on WhiteBlank.  Hands flare open, at another message.  It’s a response to the impending winter storm.… the Hunter rebel leader finally identifies himself, as a man named Captain Jeremie Dutch.

Evenso, one daring laugh escapes from a crew of don’t-know-better kids chatting loudly about the cool color play on their own wrists, at the back of the train.  This time, you feel it too.  

The Emperor getting tasered for being a perv once upon a time ago is, after all, pretty funny.
For fun, more of Hunter Captain Jeremie’s furious, WhiteBlanked, ‘I can’t believe I lost a Senate majority to friggin deer-people’ revenge tell-all’s about Crush’s past, on Randitty’s Twitter all week long.  So that everyone can enjoy, there will be even more right here on Wednesday and Friday, too.





Monday, January 17, 2011

Sanur 4, Orange Planet


Four.

The Emperor's entourage walked beneath an open-air pavilion, after passing through the largest valley in all of the planet Wyle.  Dawn sun blasted so intensely between Romanesque columns, that the light-play made their vertical ridges glow skeletal.  White penetrated every 'pore of the rock' it was explained by Crush, the Imperial Sun was so cruel as to play even with molecules, upset and pass through stone.  Against the extreme black and white, Liyane barely made out amber-frosted treetops far into the distance, before the snowy summit of a red mountain.

What were they all waiting for?

Through the hard orange hemisphere and the horrible gold scene around the burning rock, it was eventually possible see riders coming out majestically toward them.  Hooves of their mounts clicked upon black marble when they arrived.  Liyane's eyes fully adjusted, when she heard, then saw Crush lean in and snap the edge of a golden grape leaf off, in his teeth.  The vine could not have grown up on the distressed rock.  The flowing branch laden with fresh, dripping berries so hot-green that they burned against one's pupils shifted in and out of reality it seemed, before Liyane saw that someone was holding it.  A woman who was half deer, from the waist down to her split hooves, walked holding the fruit for her Emperor.

They passed through a final white-burning arch.  Inscribed glass doors parted for the entire party. 

Now, it was necessary for eyes to adjust again.  Twisting golden columns, almost crystalline as reaching icicles made everything into a luxurious furnished forest.  Decorated lounge rooms and other furless and fully-dressed pretentious menagerie revealed themselves on either side of a cheerful hall.  Liyane recognized the bronze arms of the riders serving Crush wine and grapes of which he cared only to eat the leaves.  The she-satyrs, wound at waists striped with tribal paints at the part where their humanoid selves blended into what was beastly. 

Before, she'd been tempted to become a deer, as all women were who passed the years under dominion watching exotic half-deer women flit ears and peal out the news with needing eyes, dance and frolick with various rose-colored product bottles in their hands or fixed in coiled fetlocks.  Now, Liyane verged on hating herself.

When the graceful women sang, their voices were all throaty, hurt ethereal chorus.  She did not know the words in the Wylean language, but it surely throbbed a terrible need for the Imperial Buck, who was Tim.  Tim become Crush, and he seemed complete master of their affection.  It did not flatten him at all, he did not blush or flit off-smile.  This was his by right. 

Next, their dancing swift cream forms shrouded the man's body.  Flowing ballerina arms received cast-off garments as Crush lazily stripped himself in public, folded arms overhead into a yawn, and was re-dressed, on the move. 

Liyane now hated herself more, for having peeked.

Guests came to the edge of these rooms with no walls.  Couches and tables were set up around more beacon-black columns.  When Crush stopped his parade at the center at the hall, they applauded the ruler of their Galaxy.

And so, at last, without the light of courtroom, the blast of the alien Wyle environment, or the shades of cell-block nightmare, it became possible to see the real Emperor San'ur Crush.  Imperial posters were always drawn and the artists focused primarily on ornamentation of the ancient costumes, and sketching every point of antler to precision.  The depictions were so exact that the antlers were never, in fact, colored.  But she felt it left the bones-in-outline looking like a bruise against the page, or a brand against skin.  Now she was left with an impression of the Loving Emperor being less than ritualized.  Liyane could perceive freckles on his skin before the morning toga was swathed across his back--and she was embarrassed to have remembered so many of them, after ten years.  Then, there were two polished golden eye-holes at his shoulder blades.  A leather strap passed across the widest part of Crush's back.

Even he wore a Nude Form...

Liyane, and the rest of that entourage climbed a set of carpeted stairs, then Crush turned to face the gallery of salons.  Many happy forest deer come somewhere, suddenly... Liyane worried that she and the other humanoids in the room were being swarmed by true docile, head bowing, ear-flitting creatures.  Together, everyone looked so worshipful and painfully ridiculous.

"Do you all love me?"  Crush called out.

"Yes, great Emperor!" they echoed back.  Then it garbled into many independent, drunk-ruddy pleas.  One delighted set caught on, became the most forceful, "But here we are.  You must show us your love.  Here we are, so show us your love!"

Crush laughed paternally.  Liyane's frightened gaze wandered to where he caught his bare stomach.  Yes, as before, the lower half of Crush was a different color.  Gold?  Going autumn red?  What?  He said, "Well, that's new, isn't it?"

Crush grasped Liyane, by the hair, pulled her down a step.  "For once, we have a volunteer for my next trick. You looked on me so fondly, doe, how could I say no?"

"You promised I was free, of prisons..."

"Shh.  Ladies and Gentlemen of the Winter Court, here is my latest dissident feast, this one's a curio--a human woman who has cheated death on every single one of the Lesser Planets where she was interned.  Oh, but I did find her and fish her out of our court system eventually." to laughter, "But better than some christ's style skill at resurrection, this female has another unusual charm." somewhere out there, a trained drummer rolled, "Behold!  Enough wounds from nude-form across her shoulders to suggest that once upon a time, she was one of the better whores intent on this court.  How did--Lady Liyane--never get here?" Crush then ripped the back of her natty prison garb, for them all to see.

Liyane mouthed her hatred and endured their staring.

"So, I may feast on this one, yet, we'll see.  And another thing, over the next few weeks, you will see a runt, a homewrecker and a whore-convict all in one, restored to her original worth.  Let this be a lesson for those rebels and insistent nonbelievers, even you hunters..." the drums rolled again, and the people complained at always being dragged along before his charming punchlines, what awful suspense, "Yes, Emperor San'ur Crush is a full-blooded Ungulati and can achieve real miracles.  He can move mountains, he can destroy planets that don't suit him--he can even restore onto a fallen woman... her self respect."

Now they laughed as hell-bent and raucous as they really were, meaning all of Crush's courtiers were, this time, honestly amused.

Liyane was released with a shove, and full Ungulates, armored deer soldiers walking on two legs, helped her back up to her feet and guided her wrists into new shackles.  These were gold.  Liyane glared at Crush anew--no, he was the same old half-crack, unfunny, slimy chump.

Up the stairs, the true heart of the palace opened up.  It felt like they'd come to yet another planet done in warm roasted stone columns and a cerulean sky between every arch.  Potted green plants were everywhere.  A master-crafted, better, shining Earth.

"Crush?"

No answer.

"Nice place."

"How fast some of us part with our scruples.  And, at every single turn in our histories.  Liyane, don't be so disingenuous with me again, unless my stomach is ready for it."


...

Next: It's dangerous to be alone with him.



BWB 2, Creative Writing is Silly, Smart, Sexy

Once upon a time, someone told me that because I was a creative person, I could not be rational.  What was implied was that I could not be a truly intelligent person, for loving art.  And, that I could never become a successful person because I was born passionate and had learned it was worthwhile to take risks in life, in order to praise life.  Today, on re-reading Dr. King's Letter from a Birmingham Jail, I am reminded that society does need intensity and creative vision--a kind of Socratic intellectual tension that should drive people to find better solutions to those schemes and embittered attitudes present in our society that are based in misconceptions of what the full breadth of what being human, and being a successful person really involves.  In fact, human progress is frustrated by these stereotypes of creative individuals.

And so, as a black fantasy fiction writer, and a lover of fiction reading and then writing in general, I feel compelled to remind everyone who is an artist today and a lover of art--especially if you are a struggling creative person, of a few Don'ts

Don't let people tell you that silly isn't sexy; that indulging play and renewing the spirit in the middle of life's now-and-again drudgery serves no purpose.  People will say this to you, but don't ever let it sink in. 

Don't let people tell you that it is foolish to delve into your emotions, all those aspects of the human experience which are hard to recapture but easier to feel and convey through art--in order to respond to life's challenges.  They will tell you that your deep feelings make you too womanly, or not manly enough, but don't let it sink in. 

Don't let people say to you that if what you're doing makes no money, then it can't make any sense.  All work is at first service to another person.  Therefore, all jobs, all choices to commit time to even an artistic project is some form of vocation.  Furthermore, humans are made to care.  We are made to want to build, and participate in life’s improvement and to be loved.  And so, that is the real point of work--to make things better, to show love.

People may not always get that, through being creative, you're actually seeing another part of this life.  Just because they won't always see what you do, does not mean you are blind.  Never give into any suggestion that you aren't a worthwhile person, because you are artistic.  Now, I'll tell you one last thing that they won’t.  Please let it sink in:

Fellow artist, for doing what you do and for being who you are, you are loved because you have become a maker of love, itself.  You are progress, incarnate.  You will empower and refresh generations.

True human intelligence strives for that kind of achievement.  

...

Next:  Life decided to happen and so we're behind a few updates.  We'll see more of how strange and spooky the Deer Leader of Planet Wyle is, soon.  Then, back to a regular Mon, Wed, Fri update schedule.



Sunday, January 9, 2011

Sanur 3, Antler Face


Three.
A Confession, to His Antlered Face.

The half-deer Emperor possessed a ring that he would press his tongue onto, during breaks in the Court’s proceedings.  Liyane was being spoken to, her crimes explained, her bruised hand placed upon, then let drop from the imperial codex.  But all she really knew was that this man, with antlers enjoyed tasting his jewelry.  Liyane’s pupils dilated in the citrus light as she scrutinized the gold band, which was slick.  Fine hairs on Emperor Crush’s married finger lifted up, only now drying that the pace was returning to the trial.  A finger next to.  Next to his married finger.  Alongside the drooled upon ring.

Up from a web of red shadows the antlers stained over his eyes and face, it was Tim staring at her.  A cornered, thorned animal, peering through a thicket.

“What truth will you tell?  The judge just asked you for it.” Tim, or Emperor San’ur Crush said.  He raised a hand, to stop the proceedings.  Unhappy whispering, ridicule softened in the room.  This all became quiet as an orange leaf drifting through the rich mist, beyond the air-locked windows.  “Won’t you answer me, at least?  You look as if we know or care about each other.”

“This is Wyle.” Liyane inhaled.

“Yes, you are here with me.  On my planet.  It is the capitol of the whole galactic empire.  Do you understand?”

No, Tim, you’re from Earth.  “…Yes.”  I’ve met your parents, the bedroom with the vintage 90s posters and old water stains at the top of the walls.  You hated that the roof would leak, and plaster would fall.  You swore, cussed, that you would get out, by any means.

He walked over.  No hooves, no tail.  A man with antlers, in a white robe.  There weren’t sleeves, but large cut outs along the sides.  He leaned forward a certain way, as he did now, and the cloth opened to hips flushed, painted, tattooed?  He was gold.  Was it fur?  What was it?  But real human fingers splayed and pressed onto the wooden rail now between them.  The ring again.  The wet finger, not the married one.  Stupid for noticing it.  What in hell is wrong with you!  One fracture in the ring’s sandy jewel.  “It’s salt.”

“Is it?”

“And, the court will observe, also, that Ms.  Harcourt is coherent enough to comment on fashion… so yes, she should be able to answer the question.  Judge Kaeril, ask it again.”

The judge must have spoken another time.  He had large, black eyes set in a wide face.  Liyane grimaced, felt how the muscles tugged at her throat, her chest and shoulders, made an ache in her back too and in her thighs the way she had been sitting.  The way she had been crouching for months.  A deer man, with a salt-lick ring?  He couldn’t keep himself from it.  Was this good?  Was this unhandsome?  It needed to be disgusting.  But it wasn’t.  It was Tim.

“Liyane Harcourt!”

Now, red-scarred Liyane in gray rags gripped the railing.  Judge Kaeril had a black robe and tufted ears also.  Then, all the other faces in the room that were marked with fur, or round ears, trotters where fingers should be.  A woman in silken purple gown, sitting in the back, flitted split in her skirt away from two crossed, bowed hindlegs.

“Will we have to transfer you again, madam?  To someplace else where they beat dissidents harder!”

Tim smiled.  There were other hard-looking people waiting in the room with their barristers.  Nobody dared challenge the emperor suddenly disrupting things.

Liyane did not know why seeing Tim like this, made her release, “Years ago… I was arrested, at a protest.  There were a lot of us in the University square, but it didn’t go the way we thought.   We weren’t released right away.  Because, these were deer police.  They found out I was close to… the leader Jeremie Dutch, and our strategist.”

“Go on.  Say his name, please.” Emperor Crush, as he looked from this angle, glaring out at window, antlers pointed in profile.

“Timothy Erols.  Timothy Erols, Junior.” Liyane scraped, under one thumbnail.  “I was studying biotech.  They were going to put me in prison, but if I helped to catch them...”

“Your friends, do you mean?”  His antlers did not move, when he spoke, however the human features of his face contorted.

“… But that wasn’t enough.  I mean…” she focused on another rigid, cracked fingernail, “I couldn’t just sell them out, like that.”

“But the record states that you did, in fact, sell out your friends.  What motivated you in the end, Liyane?  Golga, I should say.  What was your answer again?  Say it louder.”

“A Nude Form.  I didn’t want to look… the way that I felt, had been born.  Anymore.  And a better life, a chance to start over.  My heart wasn’t really ever in the movement—”

“Am I supposed to be happy to hear it?”

“They released me, but I was wearing a wire.  When they figured our location, I guess… the deer followed.  Tim and Jeremie ran, and I wanted to go with them, I should have, maybe I should have!”

“Too late for that.” Tim passed his hand through the air again, when Judge Kaeril would have followed up with his own questions.  “What’s the last of it?”

“I tasered one of my friends… Timothy.  I didn’t want to, that is what the police gave me, for protection.  My finger slipped.”

“Your finger did not slip.  Was it that one, right there?  Let me see it.  Give it to me and see what I do to it now—”

“My Emperor,” the judge at last intervened, “How shall she be sentenced, for conspiring with the hunter rebels?  The court is eager to satisfy your wish.  With so many other cases today.”

Crush answered, “Tim was so fried he ended up in treatment while he was in custody, because he wasn’t any use quieted.  Jeremie was tortured and then killed on television.  Correct?  We’ll know whether you’re lying.”

“I… yes.  For a long time, Jeremie was, but…” then, Liyane wondered whose side she was still on.  Why should she confess Jeremie’s existence to the deer?  Or did he deserve it, for selling her out, nude form and all for more WhiteBlank?  “Well, everyone saw him go.  Timothy later escaped, and for years, he stalked me.  The Witness Protection Protocol didn’t help.  Not at all.”

“Until Timothy Errils was murdered.”

“I… I don’t know?”

“Yes you do, Ms. Harcourt.  I’m telling you.  Timothy, your old friend, lover—you left out that part—stalker, whatever, was killed years ago.  By the ones who loved him most.  Alright then, High Judge, her story corroborates the record of his.  So this is finally shut.  Liyane, you’re free to go.”

Liyane shook, while they removed her handcuffs.  “I don’t even… why is this happening to me?  I was passed from prison to prison… just to check my story?!”

The judge banged his gavel for order.

“Yes, we needed your story, but you also just received my pardon.  The hunters are beat, I said, or weren’t you listening?  We cleaned out their chief bunker on Earth.  Other loose ends now need to be tied up, and I’m seeing to the more interesting stories, personally.  Are you confessing to some other guilt now, Liyane Harcourt?  Have you committed more crimes against my empire that earn you going back to any number of dungeons you were passed through?”

Crush’s councilors, all half or quarter deer began to assemble around him, to process out.  The judge crumpled then began to eat the court record, at the Emperor’s gesture, and shuffled the next set of papers.

Liyane got down from the witness stand.  Limped up the aisle, by leaning on one row of chairs cast in orange day-light and then another.  People watched her.  Liyane kept turning her back, to watch Tim, who wanted to be called Crush.  She knew that the door was open, but she also knew how Tim was.  She would never be, really this close.  Right at the threshold, Liyane took the gilded doorknob in hand and held on, squeezed sweating palm over it.

“WhiteBlank.  I think I smell it.  Doesn’t anyone else?  Someone, go search her.”

Liyane shuddered and cried.  She knelt, then screamed, while the deer police went into her drab prisoner’s garb, restrained her, and pulled free a packet of pearlescent crumbles that oozed green when one squeezed.  They pronounced her criminal again, in possession.

Red antler shadows crossed over Liyane again.  Liyane lashed out of tantrum to cower, folded arms across the back of her neck, so she couldn’t look at him.

“Oh, sweetheart, I’m sorry.  It almost looked as if, you’d been completely forgiven.” To the judge, “What’s the sentence, usually, for someone in possession of this much WhiteBlank?”

“Years, maybe.  Well, not human years.  Ungulate years, going round a red star.  So that’s effectively a life sentence for an Earthling.”  The pop of a pen cap, and Judge Kaeril began to write it down.

“But it’s always less, for a noble, as we have important imperial business to get back to, make such great contributions to the galaxy.  It’s too bad that you aren’t one of those, or at least a friend, sponsored by some powerful ungulate.”

Liyane showed teeth.

Her old friend, the antlered Timothy knelt down.  “You will beg me.”

Liyane rubbed her eyes of tears, and these were tugged into cuffs next.  She began to approach the witness stand ushered by deer guard, and then the wrought-iron doors back down into the dungeon again… wild!  No.  Convulsions.  “Crush!  Emperor Crush, please!”

Crush crunched down into the salt stone of his ring, sucked on the piece between his back teeth and cheek like passing ice cubes from refreshment through one’s mouth on a hot day.  “Sorry for the break in proceedings, High Judge.  It seems this woman was always mine to play with afterall… Bring my newest ward, then!  Set a place by my seat, something amusing another infamous pet of Emperor San’ur Crush would like.”

People in the courtroom chorused laughter.  Crush said that he wanted more salt.  And good drink.

But first, more salt.

. . .
Next, on Wednesday:  The Emperor's pet, peeved.

(Randitty-O-Meter:  7, For the salt-ring, and the cut-out robe.  Scary, what passes for a deer fashion-do, these days...)



Thursday, January 6, 2011

Too bad for you, more weird stories are a'comin

Great news:  feature stories will now update on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, starting next week.  I'll also be trying on a new strategy for story-telling that should make things a lot more suspenseful and fun.

Thanks again to everyone for reading and please enjoy what's to come!

Oh, and here's another thing to look forward to:  May 2011 will mark Randitty's anniversary and I have a HUGE project planned to celebrate my first year sharing stories through this blog.  I'm not sure why everyone else does it, but I'm here posting because I've always wanted to just tell my stories.  I love doing it, I love enabling people to experience more joy, recapture more passion from the far reaches of their memories and hearts.  For me it's never enough to tell a story, it also has to be done in a meaningful, mesmerizing way.  My hope is that what I have planned will manifest this in a remarkable effort, that you can take home.  And, turn its pages... and pet it.  And stick bookmarks in it--Okay, so now it's really obvious there's going to be a Randitty book (with a twist!), but more on that later.

In the meantime, nos vemos.  We'll see each other again soon for the third dark and silly installment of San'ur Crush, this Monday, January 10th. 

...Is it weird to craft odd and intense stories, in order to help people un-tense and feel more normal at the end of the day?

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Sanur 2, Whiteblank


Two.
Champagne, Treachery and a little WhiteBlank

"You know," Jeremie snarled--or no, never that.  Not on my baby.  My baby love was definitely smiling, just gently off, when he said, "I didn't realize how close you and Tim still were.  Only a couple of days ago, I was running for my life to an evacuation port, because the Hunter Alliance had been ousted from the Ruminati.  It happened at our very own opening session.  This is a new year, I could still taste the champagne on my tongue from that... oh you wouldn't believe the Victory Brunch of the Allies.  Remember, I always dreamed of it, but it was Norton said to call it that, do you remember him too?  But, as all the star-streaked galaxy flew by us on that flight from Wyle, I was stuck thinking... Who set us up?  Who knew exactly which arms to twist votes out of in the Hunter's Alliance and surround the place with turned guard so fast?

"Then we got back to base here in DC, and I saw the new campaign posters all over the streets.  Each one roared in bold about how we Hunters hadn't worked hard to restore anything at all, and that this last surviving Imperial Ungulati with his new 'repentant' senators were going to enforce order.  Feast on all dissidents... But it was Tim's face I wanted to rip down from every Metro stop or bike stand.  Not some half-deer's.  Then again, if Tim hadn't bothered to change his face, not even now, then I would have noticed him years before, sneaking among our ranks.  But why would he even go so far in the first place?  I would have welcomed Tim back, I prayed for him all these years, he must have known I would.  Ohhhh... I can't think.  It's been snowing on and on, for weeks because of the posters.  Posters, then snow.  What ever happened to us, Golga?"

How could Commander Jeremie Dutch of the 1st Region's Interplanetary Hunter Alliance not know?

"Or no.  No, I would have definitely wanted to see Tim's cheating face because... While I was waiting for the others to regroup and reboot, the very thought of lying, scheming little bitches returned another wonderful memory.  You had to still be alive, somewhere.  You, Golga."

Jeremy got nearer, pulses of white breath parted to show the real distraught face and form of a man who always felt so soothing and right, somehow regal in nature, however life roughed him up.  Jeremie wasn't supposed to didn't flinch or erupt.  He brooded, then stood to act.  This new sparkling anger didn't fit him.  "Golga.  We're frozen and at our end with Emperor Crush--Tim's siege, and I need you to help me understand... Three days ago, you were sitting up late in your apartment mangling this thing, right?" Jeremie held up what was now a gunmetal cuff with wires torn out of it. 

The pink paint-stripped, pried apart edges weren't dripping blood, but something close.  That rose red stuff-of-life all biotech was immersed in behind its metal housing became a gelatin at some temperatures, like raw salmon flesh.  Now that Free Me's innards weren't being kept at proper conditions, it dripped against the laws of physics and clotted on the cold floor, where Liyane craned her neck to watch.  Only reminiscent of blood, Biotech Blood was meant to alarm the human instinct to safeguard complex and delicate technology most people used but couldn't understand.  Light passed through what was something more like battery acid, as if it were a jewel. 

In case studies Liyane remembered by wrote, a negligible percentage of people, usually those with distressed childhoods, or other terrible trauma were drawn to covet the robotic blood, play with it, as Jeremie had been doing.  He now slammed abused Free Me on the steel table next to her exposed thigh and placed, regretting his temper, a stained screwdriver next to it.  His hands were dripping with Bio Blood.

"So, this is a child's toy, Golga?  Hunting rifles are outlawed, but you rigged an old deer hunting game from before Invasion, to target and shoot real deer, anything with the DNA.  This is clever, I admit that, just like your old work.  Perfect for today's deer police.  I see that you used your thesis work after all, though none of us got our chance to graduate.  How do I modify this so that when the Ungulates come back, it actually works?"

Liyane tried to speak, but only a frozen shudder passed over blistered lips.  Why?  Cold and discomfort whited any more focused thought than memories of textbooks. 

"You must know something about its matrix, no Hunter engineer can untangle it... And it can't be that difficult either.  Golga--Liyane, whatever, and don't you dare lie to me... You kept sharp somehow, when the WPP records say you were working as a kindergarten teacher for eight years.  You must have some idea, anything?"

Where were her clothes?  What was he going to do?  Liyane saw that she was surrounded by metal odds and ends, silver utensils, machine parts.   "Look at me, Golga.  They didn't send the deer police after you.  We checked before we got snowed in.  The Ruminati had nothing to do with your salvation, this time.  The new Emperor San'ur Crush sent his special Unglate Ops after you.  After your treacherous ass!" he sparked, for no reason at all.  "When we went into the police station, get your records out of the damned imperial system, my Hunters were dealing with the freaking SOU, Golga!"

He spoke at times, as if they were still in the old skip-and-smoke hunting group together.  At others, they were friends and lovers verging on a tenuous reunion after hurt.  The human brain just didn't fizzle that way, because of the cold?  "I knew you were in witness protection, but the SOU was looking after you?  So then, you do still talk to Tim, you and the Emperor are connected.  Was it you, like I was thinking... on the ship...  Was it you setting me up again on Wyle, before the Ruminati?  Do you know that, right now, the man who loved you most of all, and your old friends can't get out of this bunker for food or potable water?  We're left with... surviving on... Not even off this damned planet?  We can't go anywhere.  We're stuck here on Earth beneath a blizzard now because Emperor San'ur Crush, now knows where the other senators have fled!  Because of you!"

"I love you too, Jeremie.  Oh my baby... I never ever stopped." and that cracked and hurt at the corners of Liyane's blue lips.  "Reboot?  Matrices?  You were gone, then... What... happened to you?"

Jeremie leaned elbows on the edge of the work table and covered his eyes.  "No.  This isn't right.  I came back from the dead, for this shit?!"

Better luck next rebellion, spaghetti legs.

Jeremie raged at the broken piece of Free Me, stabbed it with the screwdriver a few times, and then smashed it on the ground.  "...I still can't get it to shut up, either."

Liyane shivered with smile, tested his lips with one patient, frost-white finger, kissed him.  So warm, at last.

He returned, "I should not have let you do that..."  But then Jeremie let Liyane do it again. 

Why did he smell so strongly of biotech blood?  All over him.  Like the last time she had seen him.  How long ago had that been... Jeremie's warm torso speared through by twelve-points, blood smear as his chest was forced up, let down the glass again.  His death cracked the camera lens for even more dramatic effect... On a fine, Falcene biotech television screen.  Rose at the flat frame edges... One could smell the crushed snow and copper blood, as if truly there... Beyond, was a floor-length square of winter's light coming from the window.  Neighbors outside pushed up their fine apartment windows and threw turquoise streamers down into the streets of Falcinetya City. 

Liyane remembered that she changed channel to a cooking show rather than react, but that filled the apartment with roasted garlic and it made her hungry.  Ignore it.  Tighten laces of the Nude Form, is it a little better?  The buy-all-day channel smelled like the gentle parfum of a fancy downtown department store.  Maybe plump here or tug down a bit more, tighten there... No.  Not enough.  "Turn screen off."

My lovely, as you wish.  And then, the television extinguished.

On that day, Liyane breathed and renewed a focused admiration of her own naked silhouette in the mirror.  Tightened laces up to a blue ribbon sewn through platinum eyeholes in her shoulder blades.  Things were going to be alright.  New body, new money, on the right side of the empire now.  Life was already getting better.  Liyane further willed it, and the lights thanked her for igniting them.  A hopeful rose red mood light made the apartment smell like the hollow romantic burn of a candle.  Liyane forced her need still more, and the wool curtains drifted together, to shutter out a Falcene celebration of justice, through use of excessive broadcast violence.  Now, take a bow, little woman: the last conceited act of your life. 

Liyane awakened again, tossed head and hair back to find her knees bent and dragging on the silver floor.  The sharp pain made her gasp, flatten tongue against the roof of her dry mouth, but she couldn't hear her own screaming.  And there would always be a terrified part of her that couldn't stand it if the Nude Form bruised in places.

Above the quake and roar of fire-bombs, rifle blasts, and the steel sides of the Hunter Underground shaking, Liyane could hear the crack of hooves tramping in a constant gait larger than her desperate race to keep from ruining her good body.  They had her arms and she was being dragged.

One gray furred face turned beneath its helmet with holes for antlers.   Wet nose was licked, “Make sure Emperor San'ur Crush knows the Hunters stripped her and sold it.  How many lifetimes worth, do you think?”

Liyane hanged head low again.  Her legs burned with the effort, her feet pumping calf muscles that were raw, oozed, bled a harder red than anything inside of Free Me.  Quick, panicked pulses of breath.  Where was it?  What happened to it?  How could he...?  It had been her only thing, the one they'd promised that made any sense, the one reason she could stand to go through any of it these long eight years!

Jeremie, 'my baby', and all her old Hunter rebel friends in need, had been ripping the Nude Form from Liyane's flesh in that cold, cold room.  Now that the pain was bringing her red, slick, analytical and back alive, Liyane recognized the sharp tang of WhiteBlank in her mouth.  Years ago, it was a drug only the galactic mob had the power to trade in.  Effects:  numbness to cold and pain, enchanting hallucinations.  And, in the long term:  borderline personalities, severe memory loss. 

“Let us hope beauty is not what the great Crush wanted her for.” said the other half-deer soldier.  It flicked its white spade tail as these half-animals always did on mention of their Emperor, to signal a worse danger coming.

. . .
Next:  The Holidays may be drawing to a close, but it's always wintery on Wyle, the Ungulati Imperial Planet.

(Randitty-O-Meter 9:  You either want your own Nude Form, or a sweet-talking TV.  Damned sexy, sustainable Biotech.)